♥ Minding Your Own Business

Michelle Phan ♥

“Never look back unless you are planning to go that way” – Michelle Phan, Lancome Makeup Guru

Hey everyone,

This week has been another busy week. I’ve been having heaps of appointments at the hospital this week because lately I’ve been getting more side effects from the Radiation. This includes constant pins and needles on only the right side of my body (the cancer spots are found on the right side of my brain) and nausea. My appetite is still going crazy and I’d find myself waking up at four in the morning eating to my hearts content. Hahahahs! Plus I sleep loads – up to twelve hours a day. I swear, I feel like a panda. :L In regards with the MRI scan i was SUPPOSE to have, the replacement doctor who took over my usual guy forgot my appointment and expected me to wait for 2 hours. Disappointed, I rescheduled the appointment next week because I couldn’t make my dad wait that long. Sighh

Andyways ..yesterday I celebrated my 2 year anniversary with my other half, Andy Vo :). We had the best day in the world! We started the day watching Shrek 3 (it’s such a good movie, but it’s short..), shopped at the city for some more stocktake sale buys – we both bought shoes from Zu (Mine was from $70 down to $36!!) and we went home to Andy cooking the best motherbeeping mussels for dinner. I was very satisfied with the day :D. Thanks baby! ❤

Okay, now to to the main topic of the week. I realised that lately, everyone (including myself) seem to be interested in everyone else’s business but sometimes this is not always the best idea. It can complicate our lives more if we try to know everything about everyone. I think it’s best to stay close to the people we hang around often because that’s all that really matters. Enjoying ourselves in other people :). I haven’t seen so many people in so long! I miss all my girls and all the fun times we have. Hopefully I’ll be able to do that sometimes this week 😀

Well that’s all for now, stay posted, safe and happy!

Forever Yours,

Monicaaa <3. x

♥ Everything Happens For a Reason

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.” — Marilyn Monroe

Life is complicated. It’s never easy and I know that for a fact, from personal experience. We’re all given a cross to carry and our burdens will become everyone else’s – especially to the people closest to us. Whatever we do, whatever we say, whatever we come across; it was all planned out before we were even born. I believe that. It’s just fate.

It’s like me and photography. I wouldn’t have been interested in the career if I didn’t win the competition that I entered in at Mt Ommaney. Then I wouldn’t have met my mentor and photographer, who needed someone who knew how to photoshop and do spreadsheets. In the end, he showed me how to work the camera and taught me all the skills and secrets of the SLR. It’s perfect. And of course, meant to be (:

Sometimes we even come across people that we’re meant to meet. Some are bad for us and some of them are good but all in all, every person that we talk to or associate with teaches us a lesson whether it is love, trust, honesty, betrayal or anguish. Life is a learning curve.

Never give up on your dreams. The sky is the limitation and only you are the one who control your life and your destiny. No one else. Who would know you better than yourself? I used to feel like I always have to make everyone happy and be this “strong and positive” cancer person all the time, but now I realise that I can have a bad day. I’m entitled to complain all I want to if I feel like it and just whinge. The main thing is to not overdo it, because it can make you feel depressed and also affect the people around you.

So my message for today is, LIVE LARGE. Party hard, (and safe, pur-lease) hahas and write a list of things you want to do before time ends. Mine is travelling around the world, taking photos for top-end magazines like Vogue, getting married to the man of my dreams, have 3 beautiful children, a beautiful home with a perfect big kitchen and my awesome Cabury Purple Honda Jazz with personalised plates “MOQ007” in Gold. Ohhh yeah, baby! Lets live the dream 😀

Love you heaps, stay posted!

Forever Yours,

Monicaaa<3

♥ My dream goals; 2010

My Dream Hubby 🙂

My Dream House ❤

My dream wedding dress 😀

My Dream Car, Hahahahs!

My Dream Travel Destinations; Japan~

Paris

Rome

America, California Beaches Bby!

♥ Honesty is the best policy

Hey Everyone!

For this past whole week, I learnt the value of honesty. Yes, we hear it all the time.. “Honesty is the best policy,” but it’s true, it really is the best thing to do – telling the truth. There are so many people out there in the world who cover up their lies all the time, that it snowballs into a bigger problem – for themselves and everyone around them. It not only causes heartaches and headaches but it also affects us mentally and physically because of all the stress and baggage a lie can carry. Lying is something that I know we all do, like little white lies – for example; my friends say my face isn’t fat (but really.. I’m growing a triple chin..) but it keeps me happy. Hahahas.

Also “name calling” is another issue I’ve been seeing heaps this week. Calling someone a bitch, slut and whore is a very disgusting and callous act. We are suppose to respect each other as human beings and acting out on a person by using such filthy words is unacceptable. It’s highly degrading and demeaning, and let alone hurtful. So if you have a problem with someone, sit down and sort it out like an adult – not like a five year old kid who bullies another kid by trying to turn everyone against him or her. It’s that simple! (:

Anyways, changing to a lighter topic, I went to a party last night called “TNT” and it was pretty awesome! The theme was lace, silk and leather – but everyone just pretty much dressed up nicely ;P.  It was a shame that it ended too early though, thanks to the noise & fights at the party. But I met some great people there and took some great shots which I will upload soon :D.

Okay – like always, I’ll update you about my health. I’m healthy as a horse, very strong and pretty much awesome. LOL. The side effects from radiation are now taking place though; I’m SUPER sensitive to the weather – I wear tracksuits in the sun, I wear leggings under my jeans, and 3 shirts under my jumper. It’s that crazy. If you are in America, I just want to remind you that Australia is in Winter at the moment. Hahahha! Also I sleep heaps. Like 12 hours a day. I feel sorry for everyone because I’m such a killjoy when everyone wants to go out and I’m the one sleeping in the car all the time. Zzzzzz..

Oh! And I also went shopping at DFO Airport today. I L♥VE SHOPPING! & Stocktake Sales. Sighh. It’s so orgasmic. I bought a pair of Ben Sherman jeans for $30 (down from $160), a pair of furry boots for $25 (down from $50) and a Lee dress for $10, (down from $140). OMGSHH! Am I good at bargain shopping or what? 😀 I can’t wait to spend more money on clothes and shoes – but then again I have to remember the value of money and how hard it is to earn it. But still.. lol!

Well that’s all for now, stay tuned 😀

Forever yours,

Monicaaa ❤

P.s The picture below, I’m wearing a wig. Looks real eh? 😀

♥ The Next Step Forward

CHUBBYCHEEKS (:

Hi Everyone,

So I know all of you know that I’ve decided to stop radiation for now. It’s so terrifying to know how much it effected my body. But I’m safe to say that I’m alive, well and extremely happy. I feel content with everything that I have right now. I’m hoping to get an MRI scan done soon so I can see whether my Cancer has gotten smaller or not, and depending on the results, I will choose what to do from there. If it’s gotten smaller, I’ll go through radiation again – and if not – i’ll go and have brain surgery in Sydney or find herbal ways of healing. I wish life was easier but what can I do? Sometimes we’re handed tough situations that we cannot control and all we can do is accept it. That’s something I’ve learnt with this disease.

Right now, I’m still organising everything for my MOQ PHOTOGRAPHY business, trying to get my name out there and just having fun with what I’m doing. I have my business cards done, and handed out flyers around the shops so it’s been busy for me for the past few weeks. Also next year, I’m planning to open another business –  a MOQ Website and Design one because it’s something I also have a strong interest in! Wish me luck! Hahahhas! All I know is that you should never let anything stop you from reaching your dreams. Sure, I have Cancer in the thigh, lungs and brain – but I don’t let that hinder me from doing what I love doing. Be strong, have faith and smile everyday. Never waste a single minute on being negative!

Anywhooo, I applied for a scholarship through Redkite and if I win the national prize, i”d win $7000. I really hope I do win it because it’ll help me so much with my career. I’m so excited for the day they’ll announce the winner. If I win, I’d buy another Nikon camera so Andy can take photos with me and be my partner in crime. 😀 It’ll be awesomeee! I’d also get more equipment and put some aside for a Honda Jazz / Toyota Yaris in Colbolt blue. Mmmmmm 🙂 <3!

That’s all for now, thank you for reading. Subscribe if you haven’t already 🙂

Forever Yours,

Monicaaa <3.

♥ Dedicated to my Mother, Chanda

love.

My mother is my world. She gave birth to me, and raise me since I was born. WIthout her, I wouldn’t exist.

I love her very much.

There were times in the past when our differences got in between us. At first it felt like we were from two different worlds. She was stuck in the past with her traditions, and I was living in the 21st century. Sometimes her overprotectiveness and rules were overwhelming and I would retaliate in my own ways – I was growing up and needed my space. But to her, I’m always going to be her little girl. And I am.

Over time, I slowly matured and started seeing things her way. Life wasn’t easy. It never is and never was. She was protecting me from all the bad things in the world so I didnt have to suffer like she did when she was my age. She was abused when she was younger, and everyday people around her persecuted her. But what they don’t see is that her heart is made of gold. It’s rare and precious – and beautiful.

I never want to hurt my mummy. She is all I have and to me, I am very thankful of God for giving me a mum like her. I pray that He will be with her forever and watch over her like she did to me.

While I was at the hospital; close to dying, she watched over me like a hawk – never leaving her eyes of me for a minute. She made sure I was warm, kept me hydrated, fed and safe. During the night while I was at the hospital recovering from radiation, I twisted my picc line and started bleeding everywhere. If she wasn’t there watching me sleep, I would’ve bled to death silently. She called the nurse quickly and they fixed me up. Im crying this as I type this because I can’t thank her enough for being there. She saved my life.

All I can say is that I want to be as successful as I can so I make her proud of me. I want to spoil her and get her anything she wants because she deserves all the riches and wealth in the world. I pray and hope that I can make this dream come true. I’d  be so happy & I know she would too.

That’s all i have to say for now, but everyone – please go give a hug to your mum or dad right now and tell them you love them. If it wasn’t for them – you wouldn’t be alive. 🙂

Yours Forever,

Monicaaa ❤

♥ The Power of Love

 

 

''We have before us the glorious opportunity to inject a new dimension of love into the veins of our civilization'' - Martin Luther King, Jr.

 

Love is the most powerful thing in the world. Without it, we’re lost. We have no direction, no goals, no purpose in life. It’s like planting a flower without the sun. It just doesn’t work – nothing will grow.

Over the past few days, I’ve learnt how much my family and friends mean to me. They love me unconditionally and is always there, right by my side 24/7. I am so fortunate to have them in my life because there are people out there who are in similar conditions like me but doesn’t have the support that I have.

I know that all of us have our own personal issues. We fight with the people we love all the time. It’s natural and normal; it’s simply a part of life. But the main message is to never abandon the people you care about. Appreciate their existence, tell them you love them, remind them that you are always going to be there for them – and mean it. The world doesn’t need more war. It just simply needs more love. Love can solve all our problems if we put our hearts in the right place and just let things happen in it’s own accordance.

Being negative is a waste of time. Fighting is a waste of energy. Screaming and yelling is just wasting your breath. What we need is to take some time to think about what we should do for one another and not always about ourselves. I think that’s whats wrong with the world today. We just care too much about what we want and not what other’s may want. So start spreading the love everyone – starting today, go forth and tell at least three people that you love them, tell them why and how they made a difference in your life. In that way – we can all feel good about ourselves. The world needs to be a happier place.

Have fun “Happy Snapping!” 😀

Yours Forever,

Monicaaa <3.

♥ Bald headed again :)

Hey everyone,

That’s right! I’m bald headed again. It’s been falling out slowly for the past two weeks and now it’s all off. Surprisingly, I’m not even one bit upset. I feel more happier actually because I don’t have to wake up now with hair all over my pillow. It got really annoying cleaning it everyday. Hahahas. Life so far has been great. I’ve been going out more and just enjoying life everyday as it comes. I guess after being told that you had only 3 days to live and me defying against the odds, I’m so appreciative of life, of God, of Friends and Family. Im happy with everything that I have and I have nothing to complain about. Complaining is just a waste of time – for ourselves and everyone else because it doesn’t do any good for anyone.

We should just smile, have a laugh at least once a day and make the most of life. Time is too short. We never know when our time is up. So everyone – live your life! It’s the best thing in the world. Okay – now updating everyone medical wise – everything is going great. My eyesight is a bit dodgey because of the medication or radiation- but doctors said it might get better soon. I really hope so as well because I feel a little cross eyed at the moment. :L

Well that’s all for now! Thanks for reading!

Forever Yours,

Monicaaa ❤

♥ Trilogy Hotel

Andy, Tom, VIncent, Darius, Me, Vic & JPN

Maccas Dinnerboxes!

Katie, Holly, Sylvia & Me

Teresa, JPN, Parina, Me, Ellise & Kim

OMGSH! Best weekend in the world. ♥

Seriously, I can’t explain how much fun I had in the past couple of days. In my last blog, I mentioned that I was given an apartment for two nights (for free) by the Starlight Wish Foundation at a 4.5 Star Hotel – and let me say that it doesn’t disappoint. Thank you so much guys! There were 3 bedrooms, one with a King sized bed (that’s mine!), another with 2 single beds and the third room with a Queen Sized a bed. It was pretty awesome – it had a lot of space for everyone who was staying over – and we hired a conference room to hold the party when the numbers got big. We danced, we talked, we went craaaaazy. Well maybe I did, but we still had a blast – eating and drinking the night away. I stayed sober the whole way – but lets say some people had a little fun themselves. HAHHAHS. We chilled there until 11 -12ish at night before a group of us headed to the beach and just relaxed. That was epic moment. 🙂

The next night was great as well. It felt like I was living in a room with flatmates. We all made our own breakfast, (bacon, eggs, toast, marinated mushrooms & heaps more) before we started exploring Gold Coast. I finally went to Harbour town (thanks Andy!) and went on a shopping spree. Pretty sure I want to go back there again coz it’s so cheap. Ellise and Sylvia made awesome an awesome sausage sizzle for lunch and man, was it good. HAHAHAS. I made dinner that night, Spaghetti Bolognese, and I hope i did a good job as well. It’s a family recipe guys! Hahhas.

Anyways, all i can say is that it was one rock on party and I want another one now. Maybe during the holidays, a group of us can hire out an apartment for a few nights and just chill. I makes me feel so independent and grown up. I can’t wait to live in my own place one day. I know I’ll miss home though. :L

Well that’s all for now, But i want to say a big thank you for everyone who came. I was a great turn out! Also a special thank you to Ellise, Victoria, Sylvia Tim and Andy who helped me organise this event and made it spectacular. ❤ you guys heaps!

Forever Yours,

Monicaaa ❤

Beach Photo! Jordan, Maria, VIncent, Vic, Kimmy, Me, Teresa, Tim, Chad, Chris

Abi, Kim, Rosalyn, Me & Joselle! Pool Picture !

♥ Tonight’s gonna be a good night

Im so excited for tonight. Im having a small party at a 4.5 star hotel and I cant wait for it to start. As you can see, I’m typing into the wee hours of the morning again (thanks to the Dethamethasone) which keeps me up at night but that’s okay. I have the net to kill time for me. HAHAHAS. Life so far has been cruisy – i’ve been seeing heaps of my friends lately but sadly, not Andy. He’s been studying his head out. Hopefully he can chill over the weekend and not stress too much! :L

I have to thank the Starlight Wish Foundation for providing me this free accomadation. I need a weekend off to unwind and just relax with all my close friends. Im gonna gain so much weight. I can FEEL it. I decided to have a huge maccas rundown and buy many dinnerboxes tomororw. HOW awesome would a photo of that be? I shall post some pictures soon when I get back. Also I’ve been working on a secret project / competition at the moment but it’s not due until sunday night so cross your fingers i’ll get it done by then. I shall post it up by monday night so check it out!

Anyways, I dont have another hospital appointment until Wednesday & to be quite honest,  hope I dont have to go there often. There people there are nice and wonderful people there but the waiting, the usual blood tests and more waiting… really kills the mood. I just want to be free from all that but I guess I just have to keep praying that a miracle will happen and I wont ever have to go there again !

Life is something we don’t acknowledge often – but its something you have to remember that very important part to us. Never forget where you come from, what you’ve been through or who you’ve been forgetting to thank or say “I love you” to everyday because a day without that, is a day wasted!

Well that’s all for today, ❤ you all.

Forever Yours,

Monicaaa ❤